I am beyond thrilled that Chris and I are expecting our first baby! Let me see..well, honestly-thrilled, excited, nervous, scared (but a good scared!), anxious (already..I know...), happy, humbled and everything in between that is good! Chris and I had been tackling infertility for a short while as I had just been diagnosed in March (though I had the syndrome all my life) with PCOS...this is a severe hormonal imbalance where the cause is sadly unknown and yet it can cause an array of symptoms. The main issue with this is that I was not ovulating (producing an egg that could be fertilized). In the last month that we were waiting to see a specialist at an infertility clinic I ovulate! Each month I would go in for blood work 7 days past the day I thought I might have ovulated...just a couple days off and I would miss it even if I had. But in May...I thought maybe...so I went in, preparing for another negative result. A few days later my doctor emails me that I did infact ovulate which I was over the moon about. That alone was amazing! A week later...I was feeling off and asked Chris to bring home a pregnancy test...

I always thought I would tell him in this cute "you tube"-ish way and post the video etc...but...that went out the window, I was too anxious and to tired to run and get the test myself. He came home, hopped in the shower, I took the test and BAM! Two...TWO PINK LINES! The first (which is the one I was always missing) came up right away and then the second control line...it was getting darker and darker...we just laughed in shock...hugged...thanked God and sat on the couch not saying much else....incredible.

A few weeks later...we had our first appointment and to see that little heart to be fluttering away...just a little flicker, almost like a christmas light...and the to hear it! I heard my childs heartbeat...I still can't believe it...I mean I can but...you know :)

There's our lil bean...at 6 wks 5 days with a strong hb of 144 bpm...oh gosh...it's just amazing. I thank God every day for this blessing..I pray over this baby..we pray over this baby...mama sings to this baby...we are just two becoming three..my heart can only smile..

To read more about our journey through infertility/pcos/trying to conceive visit http://www.notbroken2011.blogspot.com/ I will forever hold this blog dear to my heart...it was a time in my life I wanted to embrace and pray through and let God use. The blog is active to look back on, but I do feel that with this pregnancy, God has in a way closed that door for us and we can move ahead and live life celebrating the blessing we have been given. PCOS/Infertility are never far from my mind and I champion the millions of women/couples struggling to conceive. Awareness is key, compassion & knowledge are vital. Thank you God for allowing us to be a part of the fight. And thank you for our blessing..our victory baby.

If you read in the "back story" of the blog to the right you can see the inspiration, purpose & thought behind creating this new blog. I, although a private person, have always had this...desire to be transparent about life. I know, I know..so contradictory but for me it makes sense somehow. I love learning from others, taking in what lessons life has to offer and sharing my experiences as well. I know, I know...I'm only 24 and I still have a lot of life to live and learning to do. Well, thats my point.

I think going through life and being able to share life, not just with the ones you hold dear and near but with-well, anyone is kind of neat. To be able to sit and put my life in words can be fun for me and leave way to documenting the grandures and simplicities of..again, life!

To start, let me say that I loved, loved, loved my last blog. Not Broken was about my (and "our") journey through infertility, trying to conceive and the other parts of life that were meshed in there. I wanted to share every part of what went through my heart and head and hopefully after every post leave not just an experience of mine..but the hope and comfort of the Lord with whatever readers I had...In that I was prepared to go as far as God would've taken us. I was prepared to face hormone therapy or IUI if it came down to it and I was also prepared for a pregnancy no matter how soon or not-so-soon it may come. And with all the prayer, God encounters and doctors appointments...much to my surprise...we got our blessing. In the month we were waiting to be put on a list to see a specialist at a fertility clinic in nearby Fremont...we got pregnant! Our lil victory baby is due Jan 28th 2012 and Chris and I couldn't be more excited...

I'll share more about that later...post pictures and all that jazz...but for now..this is just a hello. A breif, swift intro to this new little avenue. I look forward to all I will get to write about...and thanks for following :)

-K